Archive for September, 2016

September 8, 2016

Whatever it Takes…

We do heck of a things and we sometimes give up heck up a things. Everyone does the same thing and when we want to do something different then we find that most of the things are already done by someone else. How can we do the same thing again and if we are doing the same thing, will we succeed in that? The mind is struck by some of the questions like this instantly. We do some surveys on this, give some time to this, live for this and then we give up as we feel that it’s not the right thing to get the success. Do we really do this? All? No. Some? Yes.
We just need to keep one thing in our mind, “Whatever it Takes, I will complete it. Nothing can stop me from completing this errand which I have assigned to myself.”. That is the time when the success will proceed towards us. We have to remember that if we are doing the same thing, there must be something different in it. It must not be same or have any resemblance with others. It needs to be different. If we are doing something new which does not exist then we need to believe in it. We need to LIVE it to its fullest without having a bit of doubt in the gray cells. That’s the time when you will feel in a different way somewhere within core of your heart.
Whatever it takes, you get up every morning and complete your ablutions. Similarly, whatever it takes, you have to believe in your ownself and trust your belief to make the things happen.
Every relationship stands on a feeling and some emotions. Every feeling and emotion are different. When there is a clash in the emotions or the feelings, a relationship parts. That’s when the belief lacks. The relationships which stand the lack of communications, come over the clashes of emotions and do not suspect the feelings, make a great relationship and the bond can never be broken. There are only a few examples of great relationships.
Likewise, we have to understand the emotion of the task which we are doing for our own self so as to reach the pinnacle. We only refrain our self from our dreams only when we have a clash with it and the bonding breaks. Every single relationship is delicate and we have to live it in stead of taking it for granted.
We want to succeed and we lack the guts to walk and hold the hands of the success at any point of time at any cost and whatever it takes from us.
Whatever it takes, live it.
Whatever it takes. get it.
Whatever it takes, do it.
whatever it takes, feel it.
Whatever it takes, make it.
Whatever it takes, achieve it,
Whatever it takes, win it.
As in the end, it’s all about YOU and you ONLY.

September 6, 2016

The Breakup

Every move of hers blew me out. She was junior to me in school and I had my eyes set on her. I took the first step and she agreed to take the steps forward together forever. Many beautiful moments were lived together until one day she bid a farewell. Forever lasted for three months.

I felt the tears rolling down my eyes for a couple of days in the darkness and the heart bled in the day light till a girl who was around five years older than me came and held my hands. She not only helped me in my studies but also healed my bleeding heart. She hugged me so tight that I realized that my heart won’t bleed ever again. We had this secret affair. She texted me at three in the morning confessing her love and bidding a farewell. She vanished in the thin air as there was no contact of hers. No phone, no emails and none of her friends knew about her. The secret affair secretly broke up and the heart secretly wept, the devastated emotions were secretly hidden.

I was meant not to be in love. Ever. I was afraid to take another chance, a risk, and hurt myself. Moreover, it was impossible to think of anyone else. She was secretly travelling through my grey cells and flowing through my heart.The clock ticked, weather changed, places changed and so did life.

I was proved to be wrong by self and the one pole of the magnet was again attracting the another pole. Someone, again, entered into my life who was almost of the same age as mine. It started with a formal chat and became informal. The words of a few minutes became night long laughter. The first kiss was experienced and the same cup of coffee was shared. The lunch plates were always the same and there were never two cones of ice-creams. The heart felt that the time has come to settle down with this beautiful woman and have a stress free life but (this damn but always changes the whole meaning. Damn this but) it was not meant to be in that way. Society came into the picture and I became the antagonist. Everything was futile and every effort to convince went in vain. And we broke up, again.

The broken mirror can’t be joined without having a scar but the broken heart can be mend without leaving any ill experiences. The heart has decided to live a life without having any other affairs and break-ups. It was fed up with the social taboo and the trauma. It was not meant to be suffered every time. Neither the -OH group nor the consolations, neither travel nor the nature could heal my heart and I was in no position to trust myself in a relationship anymore. I knew that I won’t recover from it ever but I understood, after a few years of dwelling over, that it’s a waste pondering over things which I can’t change or handle. There is no point wasting life over the things which don’t value you.

I am, after a few years of struggle with the inner beast, happily settled now with a beautiful soul who accepted wholly. We have no particular place as we keep changing our location every other year. We are walking together towards our dreams which is secretly shared by us to live a life full of laughter.

None of my relationships was a delusion, none was based upon a fake emotion, none was meant for passing time and none of them were worth for me. I am thankful and my life is filled with gratitude without any angst and remorse.

The breakups joined me together after breaking me apart.

September 1, 2016

Qui Suis Je?

I am tall, arresting and fair with the best figure which attract most of the men and make most of the women jealous. The educational credentials show that I am highly qualified and the offer letters revel that I have declined the offer from most of the top companies of the world but I am still living an opulent life.

No, I have not inherited any property or money from my parents or grandparents. My parents politely asked me to leave their home, which used to be ours, after trying to convince me to leave the profession I am into.

What do I do? I am not working with any companies, I am not working for anyone but I am satisfying most of the human beings. I am satisfying the physical needs of men and women of this society, the profession which was looked down upon by the responsible people of the educated society. However, we are satisfying most of the people of this society who despise our profession outside the four walls and appraise us inside the closed doors.

Some are first-timers, some are experienced, some are young, some are old, some are deceived, some are desperate, some are diffident and some are lively. Some negotiate, some don’t and some pay more. Some shed tears, some enjoy the moments, some sleep after getting drunk, some abuse and some hurt physically. Some spend some time chatting over a cup of coffee or a bottle of beer before leaving. And some try to see someone else within me.

I am a great actor and I am paid for acting but I am not renowned like the celebrities as my acting starts and ends within the four walls and the acting lasts from a few minutes to over night. I appreciate my acting but no one knows that I act. I won’t be paid if I fake my acting. I nominate myself for Oscar even which I win in my dreams.

I travel a lot and write in my free time. The ones who know me as a writer does not know the other side of me. I have a real estate business and the people associated to me in my business life are not aware of my other two professions. I do visit old age homes and orphanages every other day and serve the best I could. I love nature and appreciate the beauty of the humanity.

I ponder over myself what I am. I love myself the most but when I see myself in the mirror, all the personalities come out and ask “Who am I?”.